Wednesday, September 19th

It’s fascinating to me that I’ve practiced yoga and mindfulness all these years but still haven’t integrated the lessons fully into my being. I’m referring to slowing down … like reeeeeaaaaaaalllly slowing down. Like never reacting. Is that possible?

As I walked into Starbucks today to get some work done, I stopped and talked to the girl at the counter prior to ordering. I know a few of the baristas but had never met her. Sydney. I had a lovely, easy conversation with her.

Now, it’s not like I’ve never done this before. I look each one in the eyes and talk to them. It’s hard to explain but today’s encounter was different. I was more at ease. It was like I completely LANDED in my body and stayed there throughout the conversation. I didn’t DO anything special. It wasn’t an intentional activity. I was just IN my body far more than in my head, and that’s what makes all the difference.

I am in my head so much. It’s how I’m built. I am a great listener, generally actively listening, not thinking about the next thing I will say, but there’s less ease in more situations than I’d like. I’m always conscious of what the other person might be thinking of me. It’s disorienting (and generally un-peaceful) to live this way. I feel like I am seeing myself more clearly, while taking myself less seriously lately. It feels nice.

My new practice in all public settings (or as many as possible) in order to find more ease and groundedness, in order to embody myself:

  • Stop.
  • Breathe.
  • Feel my feet on the ground. Feel myself land IN my body.
  • Look the person in the eyes. See them.
  • Say hello.
  • Wait for their response.
  • Listen … like really listen … to what they say and how they say.
  • Respond in a natural way, making light but meaningful conversation.

Y’all may think I’m crazy. Sometimes I think I am too. Do most people do this? It’s not an easy, natural thing for me. My whole life has been about R E A C T I O N.

It’s about presence and intention. Seems simple enough but I forget to slow down too often. If I’m not doing this practice, what the hell am I doing?

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